self indulgence

you know something weird? Contemplation become my self indulgence lately.
while I'm doing so, seemed like I have idea how to solve my problem.
I think I've been doing since sometime ago, but it is emphasized since my all-by-my-self-trip to Bali last July .
except this gathering I have with unimportant people from Warung KGB every now and then ,I didn't enjoy being in the crowd that much anymore,:-D

Despite who I was before, and who (or what) I will be in the future,
this indulgence can rouse the positive side of me.
getting older, doesn't necessarily made ones as an adult
A reflection to my past, there ware many occurrence, I was a child that trapped inside a grown up figure.
Like to share what's yours?

am a good motha,aren't I?

One of my relatives,told my sister, to let me know, that in his opinion, I should hug my babies more often.
Well, frankly speaking here , I was pissed of hearing this :(
Then,I remember, I met him and his- I- love u-u love me-we are happy- family is every now and then,with the mother act as -stay-at-home- eventhough we live in the same neighbourhood.
I don't think he aware that my baby boy sleep with touching my big fat belly? :))
With a complain that I should hug my babies more often... probably - I should (at least) reducing my blogging and plurking time.:))
What d ya think?am I a good mother? ;)

Plurk

ok, now I join this mini blog kinda thing, the famous....PLURK!
Kak Indah has aksed me to visit her Plurk, then all in sudden..I signed up!
Unlike my other mini blog, twitter board, all your activity will be recorded either to gain or loss your karma.
Let see how long until I get bored with this. heheheheh

di satu bintang aku [pernah] menunggu mu

ingin kusampaikan pada bulan,
aku terkadang masih merindukan berada di bintang,
Yang tak sempat kau temui aku disana.

Gettin [a bit] smaller

My waist line reduce from 100 cm to 96 cm in 2 weeks,i lost a pound though.yay!;-)
Ps: o yeah,i'm that BIG!

another eight from me...

I think I have done this before, the eight things, but with diffrent topic. Teacher Jullie, my new pinoy friend just tagged me, here it go :

8 things I’m passionate about:
-my family ( ok, i copied your answer :P)
-any trip away from my desk *lazy employer*
-photography
-skinnier :P
-travelling
-another position (been a credit analysis for 5,5 years,yeah I'm  getting bored)
-anything mint


8 things I say often:
- Bismillah (In the name of Gracious Allah)
-Alhamdulilah ( Thank you,Allah )
-Kezia, don’t do that
-KEviiiinnnnn *yelling mode on*
-Thank you
-What so ever
-Enough is enough
-I’m starving *how will I loose the fat?*


8 books I’ve read recently:

-Rahasia Meede by ES ITO
-The Naked Traveler by trinity
(those are local books)

-In to The Wild by Jon Krauker
-Splendid Thousand Suns by Khaleed Hoseini
-The Road
To be read :
-eat, pray and Love - ELizabeth Gilberth


8 things to do before I die:

- Pilgrim to mecca
- See my babies grow up
and give me a grandchildren 
- Around the world trip
- being a better person
- yeah, can't find another 4.


8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
You’re beautiful - James Blunt
Just the two of us -
From local singer:
Any D' Cinamon songs
Sempurna – Andra and the back bone
Menjaga Hati – Yovie and the Nuno


8 things that attract me to my friends:
I’m “wild”, easy going, and…errr…let them decide

8 things I learned in the last year:
-better keep my mouth shut,
-Never trust a person so deepl...
-Control the temper,
-Don’t hate a person too much,
-Exercise good for your health,
-Kalo emang rejeki ngga lari kemane….
-Ah…what else? *bingung mode on*


8 people I am excited to tag:
Ok, this is hard…
- Intan,
- Mama rafi,
- Ellen,
- Mica,
- Napaboaniya
- Holly,
- yaya
- ina *hai, how are you?*

Hahha…done! finally!

Blogging makes me Happy :)

I got this award from Napaboaniya, wow..did I? What an honor!

I'd like to pass it to her back, riri for helping me with that blogrolling things, mica and ellen, and all the regular visitors of this blog.

Thank you guys!

craving for food

I'm craving for food for this past two weeks. I have a complete meal for breakfast, which probably other normal people will have that for lunch after a tired morning, and...I still get hungry, or wanna chew something at 10.am (i usually have my bf at 7.am-8. am at the office)
And on lunch, yep...I have another com*plete meal again, still starving at 3.pm.
Back to home, I have my dinner as well.

A friend of mine said look like I add another fat, well yeah I did, successfully add another 1 ,5 kg.
I said to my self " only 2 possibilities whenever I'm so starving like this, get pregnant or get my period soon"

well, i use birth control (IUD) after I gave birth to my baby boy, but who knows?
this lady still get pregnant after she use IUD.

But, actually, I was a bit worried, cause my baby boy still need extra care for his health somehow I will need extra effort , and I plan to lose all extra 20 kg this year. If...I get pregnant again with this weight, it won't be good for my health either (I'm more than just overweight, obese might be)
well, from last night, suddenly I lost all my appetite...and this morning...I got my period. :P
yippie...

I'm-43-fast

ok, I got the tag from another philippines blogger, this time Ellen gave me this interesting game.
well, ellen I actually tried 3 times
I am using my lap top, I can do better if I use my PC

Here the result:
43 words

Speedtest

allright then, I'll pass it to indahjuli, riri, and bunda tiara, and napaboaniya,my singaporean friends.
monggo jeng dikerjakan...
it means : go head guys, do it!

I'm a cockroach

there you go, I was tagged by Mica, my new Phillipine blogger friend who currently live in states, (btw, you're a pinoy, right? you look like an Indonesian to me :P). She did a good job updating her blog. :-D

so I just copied this and spread it to the world...



an As$ : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble, and down-to-earth! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

LOOK UP YOUR BIRTHDAY AND SEE WHAT YOU ARE. FORWARD ON TO PEOPLE THAT YOU THINK THAT WOULD GET A KICK OUT OF THIS... INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU. PUT YOUR BIRTHDAY ANIMAL IN THE SUBJECT LINE AND PASS IT ON.

Don't forget to scroll down to see what it says about you.

January 01 - 09 ~ As$ (i replaced s to $)
January 10 - 24 ~ Slug
January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach
February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite
February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
February r y 15 - 21 ~ Skunk
February 22 - 28 ~ Snake
March 01 - 12 ~ Ape
March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach
March 16 - 23 ~ Slug
March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite

April 01 - 03 ~ As$ (i replaced s to $)
April 04 - 14 ~ Snake
April 15 - 26 ~ Slug
April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk
May 01 - 13 ~ Slug
May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach
June 01 - 03 ~ Slug
June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk
June 15 - 20 ~ As$ (i replaced s to $)
June 21 - 24 ~ Ape
June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite

July 01 - 09 ~ Slug
July 10 - 15 ~ As$ (i replaced s to $)
July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite
August 01 - 15 ~ Ape
August 16 - 25 ~ Slug
August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk
September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 ~ As$ ( i replace s to $)
September 28 - 30 ~ As$ (i replaced s to $)

October 01 - 15 ~ Ape
October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk
October 28 - 31 ~ Snake
November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach
November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite
December 01 - 16 ~ As$ (i replaced s to $)
December 17 - 25 ~ Ape
December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog


If you are an As$ (i replaced s to $): A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble, and down-to-earth. That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified...

If you are a Slug : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfull! y deriv e work from people. You love being loved and when you receive your share of limelight from s omeone, you are all theirs! Well, well... Hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Parasite : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.



If you are a Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart! . The e xamples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give, and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.



If you are a Bullfrog : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of fri ends! and go od at consoling pe ople in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Snake : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the w! ay you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape : Very impatient and hyper! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!

I like to tag sili, ina, mutia, and intan

a melting pot (of my posting)

My life is a bitch lately, but lots of things made me happy aswell:

• I got 2008 friendship contract from Ameera’s mom . Sorry it took a while to thank you. You know what had happend to me, and I'd like to pass this contract to:

• IndahJuli, some peole think we look alike eventhough both of us sure I’m much skinnier than her *peace,sis*. I learnt a lot from her, a very sincere friend.

• Inawati Chen, my collage buddy…back in those years, everytime I went for a dine in Grogol with her, she’s the one that assured I had Halal Food.

• Silvi who's expecting her third precious. Safe labor,sis.

• I enjoy my new photoblog, I even made friends with world wide bloggers and even some of great photographers from the other side of this earth --- place(s) I’ve never been to --- stop by.

• Sylvi (not that silvi I mentioned before) will take me for another business trip, where she knows I’m dying to fly there, eventhough I realized she just using me since I know she’s a coward, she hate to sleep alone. Hahahha, I’m just kidding.

• I’ll meet an old friend this noon. It has been 8 years since our last reunion, so lots of things (read: gossips) has to be updated.

• Lastly…I’ll tell you latter lah…*wink*, it has to be confirmed first.

PS : IF THIS POSTING EVER CROSS My Multiply, (I enabled the cross posting facility between blogger & multiply, some time it works sometime it doesn't) I’ll pass that friendship contract to all my contacts in MP. Thank you for all the fun.

daily rambling (yeah, as ussual...)

not a good thing to start a new year,
enough is enough, ain't gonna be in that circle, no more!
ain't gonna miss the fun either

here it comes

I wish the clock stop ticking when I turn 27, bu of course I knew I dream my life away.
ain't skinnier none the richer, obviously the reason I failed fulfill my dream. No regret though,
And here come the numbers I let myself join the club.


pretty cake from pretty lady for fatty mama.
Thank you mbak nining.

PS : yang mau nyobain...silakan mampir ke kantor gue.